Life is complicated and confused but reality!

It's not easy to be me! Living with influential disability is a complicated test with no correct or wrong answers in it. All you need to do have limitations. Poor self-esteem, lack of self-confidence, being isolated- name it, I have been through it all! Most of the time, I’m always a victim of labeling. Some people will immediately tag me as "different and abnormal." It really sucks! Indeed, having influential disability with a weak immune system is like a thorn of misery filled with a lot of obstacles along my way.

When I was still in my late childhood, I had a hard time dealing with myself. Back then, I couldn’t understand my life. It was futile! I had no self-confidence even a bit. I hardly socialize with people. I was even afraid to talk to my own cousins in such a way that when I talked to them, they might suddenly laugh at me.

During my elementary years, I really felt ashamed with my classmates and my teachers. I didn’t even recite in class. I didn’t even have the courage to report in front of the class. I was certainly an aloof.

In high school, it’s my first time when I got the nerve to report inside the class. I remembered my first class reporting and I was very nervous then. My mouth was somehow dry and my voice was crack. I couldn’t relax and I really felt intimidated. My classmates may mock at me, I thought. Such a weird and strange feeling that time! On the other hand, I improved myself a bit during class participation. I learned to express my point of views. I had friends; however, I still had no identity on my own. I was still upset and confused about my purpose in this world. Life, for me that time, was completely a boring routine. I came to a point that everything was just useless and dull. I felt extremely inferior when I was with other people. My self-esteem that time was drastically low. Whatever I do or say, I felt criticized and condemned. I fulfilled some of my high school dreams yet my life was still hazy.

I grew up as a confused individual and that time, I decided to make a change and stand with my own decisions. Sometimes, I hate myself for being a handicap but no matter, I need to love myself no matter what body structure fate has given me, right?


After learning life, I join the government still when I see the people around me; I realized that life was really unfair. There were always labeling on my back even if you tried to please the people around you. You might think that the closest people to you are proud of your achievements but it turn out to be, they are not and they will nail you down until your ego will be smashed into pieces. If these people don't love me, I can't force them to do so. All the time when I think of my life it seems loneliness, darkness and miserable.

Inside me, I know that the soul of my family is always there to give me the courage I need all the time. Sad to say, the painful reality still remains the same. Sometimes I feel it would be great, like computers our lives can also run in algorithms. You can have the choice to do what you think is your choice but there are still a lot of things beyond your control. Life has many divisions and you can't always have what you want. It is extremely frustrating to be a human being sometimes, what's more if you are a handicap!

That's life; it goes on no matter how horrible it is. Now that I have realized my own strength and weaknesses, I’ve also learned to balance my self-esteem and just move on whatever it takes. Whatever criticisms that will come my way, I know I can manage it. It really hurts to be criticized but I have to deal with it and there's no other effective way of solving your problems than moving yourself toward it.

Truth is everything we face in our life is very simple as it is if we believe so, what matters most is how you see yourself in the crowd. If you see yourself as a loser then you'll become one. There's only one you and me in this world and whoever you are; boy, girl, young, old, bisexual, sexy, introvert, extrovert, prostitute, doctor, handicap, mentally-retarded, jerk, player, white, black, tall, petite, athlete or nerd, you can still stand tall to make a difference.

Yes, life is, indeed, a journey filled with roadblocks and detours but people, me included, CAN still be a real survivor and choose to survive their own circumstances.

As a handicap, fighting my own insecurities is the greatest battle I have to suffer. It's a curse of fate. It's not my choice to be like this but what can I do? Quit? A survivor has his own limitations, he can lose the game we call life but he never quits. He gets tired but is willing to outplay life whatever happens. For this, living in complicated reality is the true meaning of my existence.

Why Relationships Fail; Think before it happens!

Most of us think later when anything happens; I didn’t exclude myself from this principal of human behavior. Very recently one of my friend was feeling depressed of relationship broke up with his girlfriend. He told about the problems he faced and how it did happen, I agreed with him about his girlfriend had lots of mistakes as well…. But he was thinking about it too late, that there is no chance of getting back her to life again. I am saying that if he thinks little early then he could find a way.

From this my mind goes back to years, I had a problem with one of my mate, even though it was not love relationship we both are very close buddy than. We had very small arguments which left our long relationship sealed with enemies for years and years. Very recently I got a mail from her, saying that she was sorry for the misunderstood between both of us. Thank God for realizing her to think about it even if it’s more than 5years we haven’t had any contact.

For young generation people relationship stuff and mostly broke up thing is very usual, besides most of guys take decision very soon without thinking anymore; even then come across uncomfortable of the decisions later. So what I understand from this is most of the problems we face daily life could be better as now if we thinks about the reason of our failure before it happens.

Let me here explain what I found a help for this kind of problems yet it could be a great piece for those who could face difficulties in their love life, relationship and broke up matters.

Each day brings about new problems. These problems could destroy a relationship without a moment’s notice. Though many can be seen, some cannot. Yet, should you recognize those that are troubling your relationship and try to work past them so your relationship stays on the right course. However, there are some common issues that can end your relationship. By recognizing them, you can reduce the damage that may be done to your relationship.

Cheating/Infidelity

There is no greater threat to a relationship ending then one partner cheating on the other person. Cheating brings about so many dangers but can also hurt you and your “supposed” partner. This cheating destroys any trust, feeling and forgiveness your partner may have for you. Cheating, unfortunately, is a common occurrence in society and is rising. How can you keep from destroying your relationship? It’s quite simple… don’t cheat. Leave your clothing on for the one you chose to be with. However, if you do cheat, the best things you can do are to beg for forgiveness and change your ways.

Lack of Affection

When couples love each other, it’s easy to show some sort of affection. However, over time, you may still love each other but take each other for granted, assuming that the other knows how you feel. Instead, keep them informed of your feelings. Not doing this can lead to hard feelings and breakups. You can prevent this breakup by letting your other half know how much you love them and how important they are to you.

In-fighting

Would you believe that fighting in a relationship can be good for it? It’s very natural for couples to fight and it’s healthy too. Yet, it can be dangerous too. Don’t lose your cool over every single thing. Fights can tell you what the pertinent issues your relationship is facing. If they are overlooked and not dealt with, your relationship could end. However, remind yourselves that you do love each other, why you fell in love and take the good things along with the bad ones.

Controlling Partner

While in the romantic movies it may be funny to see the overbearing girlfriend/wife, brandishing a cell phone, demanding to know where her boyfriend/husband has been. The man may sit there and tell her “Yes, ma’am, Yes, dear”. However, real life is never that funny and should never been viewed as such. No one, man or woman, should tell you what to do, how to act and certainly should never control anything about you. A relationship like this lacks trust. It’s also seen as a form of abuse too… psychological abuse. If you are with your partner, you should have some trust in him or her.

While there are other reasons for a relationship to die, these 4 are the most important ones to know. If there is some sort of conflict in the relationship, try to fix the problem. By remembering the 4 reasons a relationship fails, you lessen your chance to end your relationship and ruin your happiness.