Bet everybody has ever fallen for someone.. Someone who makes us smile every day and night, and sometimes ‘forces’ us to burst in tears..
Ah, I don’t know what should I write about what I feel. Sometimes I think that I don’t deserve to fall for anyone, considering how selfish and egomaniac I am.. Sometimes I think that my feeling is forbidden, a feeling which is unpredictable but constantly exist in my heart.. It is like a star at night; which will never go anywhere; it will stay in my heart..
And here I am now, struggling to make this feeling in the right portion, thus it won’t disturb my logical thinking..
But somehow this feeling hurts me; makes me suffer to death. A feeling of pain, pain in realizing how far ‘the one’ that I love.. pain in bearing my jealousy. For I have a serious trouble in jealousy. Ahahahah.. What am I talking about??? I ain’t a day dreamer..
The only thing that I know now is that: I’ll be OK.. And if the time is right, I’ll find ‘the one and only’, someone who supports me, prays for me day and night, loves me, and accepts me as I am..
*cries*
